I've written so much about overcoming difficulties but I never thought I'd be writing about overcoming dreams. I had a revelation once when a filter in my brain suddenly cleared and I could now see that all those Delusions of Grandeur that made me feel bad for wanting, anything, were actually Dreams of Greatness.
But in the past few days, after two years of believing and manifesting the shit out of owning a Disco, and for all the most meaningful reasons, I've had to let go of that dream.
Strangely, though I'm sad to let go of the Disco, I'm more sad to let go of the dream. Another one. And for the same reason as always. #Champagnedreamsontapwaterreality.
So the dilemma is, do I give up dreaming? Or am I being taught patience? I've only ever known #instantgrats. Is this what #thelonggame feels like?
Tonight, as I stream jumped my way home in torrential rain, I hesitated next to a gate and there was an immaculate Disco sneakily tucked in behind it. My heart lunged for it and maybe it was the shelter of rain that made me feel wtf or maybe it was the Disco itself but I turned to it, pointed dramatically and said out loud
I JUST CAN'T LET YOU GO!
Pimp My Attitude
This is where I think out loud as I transform my appearance, thought processes and most of all, attitude - no matter how unpretty.